Hope...

Having hope is very underestimated and we all know that. At some point we all feel either the glory of it or the desperation of not having it. I believe that hope is within us all, we all have the ability to hope, what we hope for, how we hope, how much we hope, when and where we hope and maybe most important for me is the question of why we hope?

I think sometimes it's like in the Matrix movies where the idea of human hope is the essential thing that gives us human beings our strength, the ability to hope in all areas of our lives, the way we can actually hope and hope again until things might actually turn out the way we want...

I will always be a human being that hopes for the best, tries to give my fellow humans the benefit of the doubt, give them the shirt off my back if I can, but I know that not everyone is like that... Most people are I would guess much more skeptical to others, strangers, people that are not part of their social network, you know what I mean, right??

It's all up to each one of us to hope. Pray even, if that what you want to call it, but do it and do it often and maybe you will see the benefits of your, well hopefully positive hopes ....

Missing. . .

Have you ever been missing something, something that should be there but when you look-- it's gone? What can a person lose and then for whatever reason never find again? Is it possible to lose everything without knowing its actually happening? Can important things one day mean nothing the next? Is it possible to lose oneself?

Everything without knowing its actually happening is hard to understand.  Moving towards the future without belief in itself will allow for a set up against the sun that will leave no one waiting for a kind of understanding for the one. And only that one will really have the real opportunity to wake the stars in a concept only created in ones soul. . .

Without belief and understanding no one will be able to see, not even with perfect or honorable wishes will the change really come and that might be a twist of fate that will never be understood or even recognized before it's to late. .

Nothing but the unconsciously fibers of our minds will ever possibly have the real chance in understanding this existence or what we call a life. .

I do not understand....

Gotta try and sleep. . .

Goodbye...?

Saying it, hearing it, writing it, thinking about it and of course you have the act itself. The hanging up with someone, driving away, walking the other direction. . you know the feelings. I know the emotional circumstances of the situation will always add a heightened positive or negative twist to the act, but this being said there is nothing like it, both ways...

It can be very hard, especially when you don't want someone to leave, feeling very unsure about the future and not really knowing if you'll ever see or be with that person again. .

I remember some goodbyes, both good and bad, each leaving it's own mark on my being and it is also strange to think how permanent it can be.

Gotta go . . goodbye...?

Biggy, Biggy, Biggy....

Taking chances in life...

A key?

I would assume, without trying to make an ass out of me and you, that taking some chances are required in this life, the what, when, where and how are all other questions for the person taking the said chance, some take greater chances in regards to their personal reality. People living within a war zone have of course another reality than a golf pro living like I do here in Norway... That is what I find so interesting about us, human beings, that without often thinking about their own, they take chances that in some cases change their lives forever. In many cases it changes the life of said person for the better as well, I choose to believe in the human being in all of us, I choose to believe that we all can make our own reality, make it come true, change the matrix we live in, so to say... Often it comes in gifts that we don't understand at the time are gifts, something basic, ordinary, something that happens one day... Something you might not even think to much about, but that one gift, no matter how small it might be changes things for all time...

Taking chances I would assume are for some people like a drug, maybe people that live for extreme sports, those people really take chances, with the one thing that I'd guess should matter most, their lives... They can actually and do loose them in pursuit of their goals, dreams or maybe better stated, their lives.. But then again what do I know... I am just assuming here...

Gotta go, now I have to assume....

One day....

One day...

One day things will be...

One day he will...

One day she will...

One day when...

One day then...

One day it will...

One day it won't...

One day it might...

One day right...

One day things will be...

One day...

Alone....

How can one feel alone when they have people in their life? People who do care and maybe even love but at the same time one feels totally alone in this life? Always wondered about that, have never really ever felt it the way I do now.. Having my kids in my life is enough, I know that in regards to them I'll never be alone and that I am so thankful for. It can never be underestimated the power of love, what people will do or not do for it...

People risk their future, present and in some cases they risk their entire life... Giving someone or something everything you can, not thinking about the rationality of it all, just acting from the feelings pouring through, the powerful emotions can make people make choices that don't seem right from the outside, but for that person at that moment he or she makes a choice that will affect the rest of their lives...

Being alone, both physically and mentally can be a huge task to take on, if one is struggling both emotionally and financially then many things can happen, desperation is a ugly truth of this human life, desperate people do things that non-desperate people would never even think about... Making choices in the state of desperation is never a good thing, but what is one to do when they are in a state of desperation? The facts are often that one has no choices, other than to make a choice, in the state of mind he or she is in... Desperate or not...

Losing is never fun, not matter what it might be about... The smallest loss can often push someone over the edge, or an accumulation of smaller losses over time can be like the drop of water that makes the bucket overflow... Or of course one loss can be enough in many cases to make one feel like the bucket gets filled up and overflows in one foul swoop...

Not knowing, not feeling, not understanding, not not not...

To many not's for this guy now...  Gotta go, and maybe there will be some Yes's next time....

Holes. . .

Holes, there are many kinds of them and sometimes they can have a huge impact on ones life. . For a golf pro holes are a very important part of their life, an easy one for anyone who knows one well. .

That's not the holes I am thinking about, the mess of the other meanings is where my thoughts are now. What I am thinking about is the holes in ones life, the ones that people drown in, maybe put their whole life into "it" or the hole someone puts their life in or into.

Defining ones holes is important I would think, knowing them, feeling them and what to do? The future will tell I know, that is the one of the many truths here in this life, there is always tomorrow. . the sun always comes up and if that stops, well, then we all know what happens. .

Gotta go . .

The modern day tribe. . .

Is it alive and well in the modern day society?

Do we as a beings have the abilities necessary now in this modern day society to have a real  understanding of what it means to live as a close tribe?

Hoping to learn more. .

Motivate, Motivation, Motivating

Good words those up in the title. . .

Having those things in ones life is one of, if not the most important, maybe. Without it we have a hard time doing the simple things in ones life. For some it's having it just to get out of bed that is the real battle. . Imagine that, have you ever been there? So down that to just get out of bed is a victory in itself? There are people who never have I am sure, but I will bet my breaches that most people sometime in their life have reached for it and have not found it, and there they'll lie without it. . .

Feeling it flow throughout ones body must be the greatest feelings ever, giving ones whole self to the one thing, pushing the envelope as hard or as far as positively possible.

No?

Send your thoughts out into the universe and wait. The answers are there for everyone's knowledge, I just believe with all I am that most times I just get in my own way. . Things can come without much more than concentrating all of ones life power on that most important thing, that thing that for the most part gives us that ever valuable it. .

Sweden...

We have the great pleasure and great opportunity to be with each of our youngest children. For me being with my son is something special, each and every time. It does not matter, it can be five minutes, five days, weeks if it has to be, but I
cherish him, believe I keep telling myself, believe in what is important, him and nothing else. His happiness is something I would give everything for.

My daughter of course is the apple of my eye and always will be, she is my first and she taught me more than anyone, ever. .  .

Love is king.

Being abel to love them is the greatest gift life has ever given me, more than anything, on any level, at anytime, any place. . .

Unbridled love.

Two thoughts....

Have been having two thoughts going through my head as of late; first being, is it always the nice guy that finishes last or is it possible that the nice guy can finish first?? My experience is telling me that the first answer to the first question is a resounded yes... The answer to the second; well, I am not sure, can one keep trying to be nice in the face of all the disappointments and seeing that the not nice guy has a way of finishing ahead for some reason or another... What is one to do?? Stop with the being nice?? Turn oneself into something not nice, or outright mean??

How does one stay being nice and still finish first?

I guess the answer to that is just to be better at what ever it is that your doing than everyone else your competing against. Or is that to easy? Would it be possible in the long run anyway? Or is the case of point a mute one because of all the not nice people out there who just try and ruin it for everyone else? I have no real answers here but I am sure thinking about it a lot and have some distinct meanings about the subject, some of which are maybe to bold to print here....

Nice guys do finish last.

Sometimes one has to get 'mean' to get what one wants, one has to be willing to overlook others feelings, see past other people, not notice others who are trying to achieve the same goal, walk all over them, like a king... who's to say that is actually mean? Maybe it's just one being focused on his or her goal, and it's everyone else who does not understand it's not about being nice or not, it's about reaching ones goals, doing what it takes to get there and thinking blindly about it... Is that possible? Not sure myself, many times people who are so focused on one thing get the stamp of being selfish, one sided, arrogant, having no feelings, whatever it might be and I don't really know the answers...

As I get older the questions become maybe a little less in regards to how many they are, but the questions coming to heart are much more deep, serious, meaningful in nature that one has to use more time in considering the outcome or consequence of ones resolve to reach and understanding or meaning.... I am just one man, one soul, one father, one human being and I know that making a difference always starts with oneself and if one can't get that in order, well, then it's hard to think about anything more than oneself...

I remember all my life, not like a movie, from start to finish, but in bits and pieces that come and go in regards to what I am doing, saying or thinking... Having just my own life as a reference point, well, it seems to be enough at times but I really do know that we all need someone else, and I am hoping that for the most part the people I meet and have something with to do, well, I hope they have the ability to be nice and choose to do so each and everyday, a made choice, so easy really, but then again so hard...

Getting old, getting tired and getting ready...

Done with two weeks of golf, it's been interesting, have not had the chance to really think to much about it and I know that is something that needs to happen. I have felt to some little degree that I am feeling it, the getting old thing, I get a little more tired of things these days then I can remember from before.... I know that the golf game will come, had 14 greens in regulation yesterday and still walked away with an 82... I three putted 7 times, and missed several 6 footers for a par saves... One good thing that has come from the last couple of weeks is the fact I can honestly say that I have belief in myself more now than ever. Yeah the younger guys are hitting the ball farther, (albeit not that much farther, and when I really connect I'm right there with them, almost..) but I know that my iron game is good and only going to get better with the dedication I am now in stand to give... Wishing for sponsors, at the same time in a sense unwilling to put myself out there for others to have a say in it.

Not to say Im not fully understood with that results normally have to come before real help shows itself, but one could argue the case for all the players who if given the support really needed, would the percentages be different in the case of the haves and have nots? Are all the real successful ones born with the pernverval silver spoon situation?

Matter not, one has to follow the dreams one has to the end of it all or is it not all for nothin if not?

Many questions this night, soon to be at it's end with the hopes for good visions in between places. . . Hoping here in Norway for all that is good. . .

Playing, injuries and all the b.s.....

For me playing the game is the most important, not my results, and the nay say people can kiss my gritts... After playing the game for over 30 years, whew that made me feel old writing that and that's cool. Results and scoring come with playing and practicing. Being so lucky, having the opportunity to play the game I love injured or not it does not matter. Being on the field of play, giving my all on each shot regardless of what just happened the shot before and loving each moment of it. . Having a good or bad round is all in ones head, of course playing well is more fun to a large degree but Having a chance to, well that's the big thing isn't it?

Spent the day almost littaterly licking my wounds and getting body and mind ready for new challenges and demands. . Have a start time tomorrow 0930, south course, Himmerland Golf and Spa. We are ruffing it at a nice camping ground 10 min away. .

Feeling like this is all good and that doing this this fall is important for my mental practice this winter. It will be to many months with out playing that's that sad fact. . But fillin the days with positive steps towards the end goal is easy. . .

Four to Five equals 84....

That's how I am figuring it, four to five years later plus four to five rounds later and you get a 84. . . Not complaining really, Made eleven pars, five doubles, and two bogeys. Three three putts that gave away many one putt greens. . Had about seven real looks at birds but nothing wanted in today, I know it's going to get there one day, it has too, putting all our eggs in one basket this time around that's for sure. Feels good to know that even with a stretched left pectoral and shoulder muscles I did manage to finish somewhat strong in one way. . What's encouraging for sure is that with age comes something good and I believe for me that even at the age of soon to be 43 we can live out our dreams to that the utmost. .

Going out again tomorrow morning at 0930 here in Ystad, a real nice place and the course to match. . Hoping for a round of par tomorrow. . I know I have it in me, even with injury and lack of course time. . come on big kev think positive. . (one has to cheer oneself here in this world, being your own biggest fan is key) B-)B-)B-)B-)

All or nothing. . Here it goes. .

Laying awake at 0249, can't sleep, not that I've really tried either and that's ok. Big day tomorrow in some ways, others it's just the first step in a future that is uncertain for sure in some ways but in other ways it's stability in the highest... there is little question what we're doing or what the long term success will be either but it's super fun to be in it and living in a sense of hope...

Tee off at 0820, hole number 10, Ystad Golfklubb, Sweden. .

Feeling the sandman coming on now, hope that means I'll be getting about a three hour nap before I get this 42 year old body up, wake up and concentrate for a little over 5 hours and then another nap before some practice...

Drip, drip, drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip. . . its really starting to rain now. . :-):-):-):-):-)

Sweden, Denmark and TIn Cup

We are sitting here in Råde waiting for the rv people to fix the battery in the unit so we can hit the road asap... we should have been half way down to Ystad in Sweden by now but here we sit. The tournament starts this Wednesday and I need every hour of day light to practice, not sit and wait for something that should have been right the first time... oh well, that's life huh?? Yup and I know it, even though it's hard to smile and bare it, that's just what has to happen and that's what we are doing. The women and me.
Trying to get some balls hit, chips, pitches and make some putts in the hole is the idea for the next two weeks and from on and for over...

Nordea Tour is the first qualification tournament on the menu, two rounds, one cut and then another round that can be important if we get through. Have never been south of Malmø in Sweden, have heard nice things of the courses there, even the weather this time of year can be super... we hope and hope some more... give me a Swedish Indian summer that's for sure.
After that it's Himmerland Golf and Spa, the Ecco Tour qualification and a new chance of getting a Nordic Leauge ranking that can be important... In a sense it's two chances to get a better status for the next seasons tour, even though it's two different lands, they are so close and the cooperation between the two is very good... Norway could and should learn something from their neighbors, tournament golf is important for a nations future and the possiblity for getting players to the high levels... The sweds and danes have players in the Ryder Cup, where are the other scan lands?? Learn and learn and learn... Would like to say they are getting there, but I've been out of tournament golf now for almost 5 years, and things done changed...

Maybe for the better, at least for me they are... much better..
I think of Tin Cup from time to time, even one person at work yesterday said it to me... sounds like to much Tin Cup for me... and I said that's right, the whole idea back the movie is to follow your dreams, blow causation to the wind and let er rip!!!

" I know I can it that shot..."
"Stop f...ing around and do it then..."

Stress...

Nothing is like it, what it does to people of all ages, sizes, social standings, you name it, people all over the planet acting as if the  world is ending... Each and everyday. What can one do? Get mad? Yes, one could get angry, lash out, say things of all type and not even understand themselves why they are being just that way. . Stress feels, it can do a lot of different things to people. . some actually eat off it, strive over it, use it their advantage somehow, loving certain kinds and deflecting it away, back to the place of origin and crushing it. . .

Understanding and the truth...

How can one's understanding of the truth be so different than someone who in for all actual purposes should have the same understanding or truth but for some reason unknown they have not the same truth or the will to reach an understanding. That's where I guess the crux of the problem lies for me, the games people play to achieve the one thing that matters most for most...money. How can people do this day in and day out without understanding the long term consequences for society as a whole? People who have the idea that they are the only one who understand 'the' real truth seem always to be the ones who attack first or that have the time and effort to give to such petty nonsense instead of focusing on the truth and understanding the fact that most people see right thru them....

When you stand on the brink of getting mad, realize that greedy people always will be just that, and the ones who are not, well, thank god for them and I do hope that there are more of 'those' kinds of people out there than the 'other'... Walk away, walk around, keep your gaze focused on the ground and your own understanding of the truth and be strong. Be ready for personal attacks, ridicule, misunderstanding and maybe most judgement... People judge each other every second of the day, our predigiouses get the better of us more often than not and we lash out, maybe not in our actions, but in our minds... This has to stop and each of us all has the power to change it, by just walking away and knowing the truth of our own character....

Is it possible to make ones own truth? Is it possible to really understand? Or is the truth just that, and forever and ever it will keep the final record of things here I believe... Gotta go and create a little of my own reality da..

A Big Thanks. . .

Thank you Peder, the help with the membership and the possibility to use one of Norway's best facilities and a great atmosphere to boot. Thanks to the guys at Evje, was super to get in 9 the other day, was real windy but fun. Thanks to the staff at Skoger, had a great day working on my wedges and then being allowed to borrow a cart, whew, saved my knee a lot and I can't thank you all enough. .

The weather outside the unit is getting colder, this might be one of the last trips up the hill here, if of are lucky we'll be heading real south in the middle to end of October, play maybe one of the last tournaments or two and then take a cheap plane ticket back to Norway. Back to the kids, work and most likely sofa surfing until we fly back south for more practice and hopefully some tournaments in tow... Signing off and hunkering down for the night, really roughing it. . :-)

Moving Day. . .

I'd guess that the expression 'moving day' has many different meanings to a slur of people but for me it's either used related to golf or actually doing the physical job of moving.

We are moving, in more ways than not we are just doing the physical work of moving to get to the golf, which we will also be doing while in motion. In many ways we will have moving day almost each and everyday. . .

We got the army of salvation coming on Wednesday, looking forward to seeing all the material 'things' I own more or less for the sake of having it, clothes, furniture, lots of stuff and oh my anticipation is great to see all the unneeded stuff on it's own journey towards someone who might actually really need and use all 'things'.

Night time now. . .

Bobil, RV, Camping Life.... a little redneck?

Made the huge step yesterday... signed my life away with a little swipe of my pen, made a somewhat fast decision but one that has been thought about for quite a few years... Moving in and going for it, that's a big step but one that is in many ways perfect for myself and the loved ones with and around me. Saving some money while at the same time paying myself for really going for it...

Funny how some things are real blessings, even losing things sometimes can bring about changes that might have been long overdue.  Anything in this life seems possible at times, a manic root being sowed by the dreams one has can never ever be a bad thing...

Golf Golf and more Golf....

Time is in, making no buts about it, one does only live one time, if one will be whole so must giving all to the dream a given. Is it possible to not understand one's self in things of this nature? Have I been wasting my time the last years? Why have I  not seen the opportunity before me? I believe that if one is willing to give everything in going after one's dreams than the dream is possible... I know now that for the most part people don't really care, they are like most humans, concerned with "theirs" and very little with the world around them or at least the world outside of their fist. Is it wrong to give everything for a dream? Or is it just selfish and if one does it with other people in their lives that might be affected, is it wrong then? I don't think so but I of course, I do not have any real answers myself, just the experience of living.....

Sweden. . .

Leaving for the bi weekly trip to the neighbor country, the neighbor land has much cheaper everything, being that they have real connection to the eu and most likely a different political set up so they keep the prices lower for the things people really need in their daily life. . . funny thing for me is the people who make more than enough still make the trip, saving a buck is like second nature for most people but sometimes i still think its strange. . politics that make people do the strangest things, using lots and lots of cash in the other land just because this one makes it so. . yeah yeah, lucky for us that live so close anyway how it makes of feel. . .

Writing...

I do, really, have the urge to write sometimes, but now of late something seems to stop me and I can't seem to my finger on it... Was it something, someone, something, someplace?? Somehow I have been avoiding the task at hand, not really understanding why or when it might start again, but maybe it's really happening this time, for keeps if I'm lucky... Have some writing to do that's for sure, some cleaning house of sorts, putting things in some kind of order so that progress can be made... I don't know for sure, but the time is 0525 and I am sitting at the pc wondering about it all. Seems clear to me, at the same time it seems so far off, if you understand? Sometimes I guess people are themselves more concerned with the finished product, meaning in other words, looking past all the hard work it took or all the hard work it's going to take. Seeing only the end, the result, effects, whatever I guess... Babbling again...

5 years!!!!

My big guy has his 5th birthday today! Congratulation is of course in need here and being that I'm almost never writing here anymore I thought maybe giving a special shout to my big guy would might change a few things within me too, maybe in some way his birthday will help me just a smidge then that's super. . .

Leon my son you make me so happy and words will never be enough for me to share how much I love you, how much you changed my life, how much joy you have given to all you have had a chance to be around, a special boy you are. .  of course I think so happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy birthday lille gutt

Important things...

Nothing can even come close to the feeling of being in love... for me it started with feeling, understanding and living with love 24 hours a day... my daughter gave me the incredible chance to these things and I know that i have made mistakes being a father along the way but my love for them is never changing... why post this? I guess its because I can... not sure if I miss the blogging that much, just was awake this morning and I kinda just felt guided to it or something. . anyway, my little guy missed his first tooth today and I have a picture...

People....

What is it with us? Why do we do what we do? To ourselves, others and the further generations to come... People doing to other people. Good, bad and otherwise can be stated as true no? Some of the people I have met are good in general, have kind hearts, and want the best for themselves and the ones they have close. The most people I have met in this life are not that, far from it really, sad or is it people in general and that the really good ones are the exception? I am asking because I guess I don't have the answer right now....

I know and have for sure asked this and or something like this at someother earlier post but life has a way of asking you the same questions over and over until one figures it out.  Maybe it's not all that bad state of affairs...?

Gather round the family with a pocket......

Hehe, no but serious what the hell...

Trying...

We all try, at some point in out lives, if not many times a day at least one would hope that it would happen once a week maybe?? Hope so... it might not be understandable but it is for me and I have no qualms about it or saying it straight out.. Everyone tries as good as they can until they can't anymore, and what the reasons for the sudden or gradual decline of it, well, one does never know for sure, people are people and everyone is different. Thank God for that also! Think about if all were trying just as hard for the success of the same thing, 24/7... That would be just to weird and in this persons brain, it would cause chaos among st us humans. Everyone has their things, their interests, their goals and when it comes to trying, well, I just think that most people just try their best when it has something to do with them or the people in their lives they love or care about... other than that it's for the most part "hands off" and mind yourself.. No?? That's your human right not to agree and that's just a good thing actually...   Or what? Some people just don't, stop, give up, or never get it going in the first place and what do we think of this? I know what I think... Is there something we can do? Any way to make a difference? Maybe or maybe not? I think it is this way, the way of life that is and there is something in the way of living it out and I hope that it will continue for me at least and the ones I love...

Deeevs....

Here she is chillin at the house in Manstad, in the one place she loves probably more than any on earth and it doesn't matter where kit might be either. Under a blanket of any kind and she is in heaven for doggies :-)

Looks like the chance is good that spring has come more or less.... That is super of course but and I am of course hoping it's here for real. Last week I ended up sitting some balls at the local 9 hole course, even ended up paying 1000 kroner for a ball card...

Was fun and the knee held up ok, just think about how it will be with things and I am hoping it's positive for everyone...

Missing....

<p>When you miss something, you know, that feeling you get deep down in your stomach, depending on what or who is missing of course but that sinking feeling that drags at your very soul. Having that feeling is no good if you ask me, I miss my children sooo much sometimes that it really does hurt. A physical pain, without exactly knowing how or why it happens but it is weird to say the least.

Have a basketball game tomorrow morning, or should I be sayin later this morning... 0545 and still tired from not sleeping. Better go anyway and get a few hours before the game...

Having time....

I wish i had more of it. Nothing is more valuable than ones time. At least that's what I'm thinking and wondering about. Is there nothing more important? Having time with my kids for example, there is never enough of it available and if we could we'd move mountains to make or have more of it.... Seeing this possibility makes me wonder even more about all the different people and situations out there in the world and I wonder if it's even possible to make a guess or really understand the lengths people actually ago to make more time? You right think you get a glimmering of an idea by watching the tube and seeing what's happening around the marble we call mother earth.

Whew, what in the world got in to me there? Preaching away some told say and maybe kin some way they are right, maybe Having meanings and expressing them is still my right as long as I do not slander any one person... I do not wonder if it's possible to understand the reasons for publicly proclaiming my personal meanings about all and anything and for most probably not much of at all worth their time. That's really ok and probably the best for the social system as a whole.... :-)

I can never really say when or why I'll be posting here in the future and I dare not say because i know if I do then I'll end up breaking the possible 'deadlines'  and probably then I'll not post again for a long timeframe than nesasarry because of the stupid guilt or has at making such promises...
:-)

Getting there....

Getting there is never what one thinks.. If onward and up is the goal then one must always strive to reach places that are uncharted and for most of us this is a scary thought. If nothing matters to you, is it easier to really give up? Of course experimentation is what happens through our lives and nothing we can do will ever change that. The day one stops experimenting with what is important to the individual then is it safe to say that these humans are lost? I am not sure. Making each day count, love those who are important and nothing else. Love is the key. Real love is something one can feel all the way down to ones soul. Sometimes people who are not even family give us love that changes our lives forever and ever.... Nothing matters more than love and that is something  you can count on....

Having time....

Sometimes I just wish of having more time, time to do lots of things and once in a while it's nice to have time to do nothing at all. Is it possible that time is our most valuable asset? Or is the act of using our time to make money more important than using our time to love the ones and things that really matter?

NM and understanding more...

Had a long day of bball today, the boys soon to become men got taken to the cleaners so to say, not that the effort was poor, the guys played as hard as they know how.  Been thinking about that key stage of life and how one becomes a man with team sports as one of the main arena's for development? How can one understand when the time is in? To change from young man to Man, it takes time oh yes, but team sports should be a good way to help, or what? Is it possible that it could go the other way? Jepp and I see it from time to time, the total lack of respect for older people, it happens everyday but I happen to be very lucky when I can say my now soon to be men are not this type and why is it? Hmmm tough question... Leadership for one thing maybe... Being a winner isnt always about winning, even though it always helps to win more than loose... Anyway, I wish sometimes that we could turn the clock back to the times where adults did have respect and then only thing they had to do is survive and get older... This new generation of certain kinds is very complex and difficult to understand sometimes but we just have to keep going and really do what we think is right for ourselves and the ones we care and love....

New York Knicks and pro basketball....

Always been a big fan of the Knicks, all the way back in the day when they had guys like Bernard King, P Ewing and all the real players who have graced Madison Square Garden. I've seen two Knick games this week in NY but I have to say I was real disappointed in the way the players did not play any kind of defense. When the subs came int he game it was different but as soon as the starters came back, well, the whole thing was almost sick to see.. the overall lack of effort on the defensive end was pathetic.. I really do miss watching the college guys play, they give 100% each and every time out, and most of those guys never make it to the NBA. They play for the love of the game, not dollars... Uff a meg... Poor poor poor... Wish they didn't make soooo much money sometimes, maybe they would have a different look about their own life and the effect they have on countless many who watch the game, not to mention the millions of kids watching the game, trying to learn how to play the game maybe, the kids who want their game to be like the nba guys is just a shame... Especially when the guys out there are making millions not play hard... I get a little miffed about the whole thing... Playing hard should come by itself, but I'm guessing when these guys get the money, then they seem to loose perspective in what and why they are there...

Waiting for the courtesy car to take us to the airport in New Jersey, 90 dollars to the airport from Manhattan is not to bad, just hoping the guy does not expect a big tip da.. We have used most cabs here in the big apple when we have been getting around, it has been pretty cold while we have been here, not to nice to walk around and see things, we tried many times, but it was always nice to get into a warm cab... Most of the cab rides we've taken have not cost more than 15 dollars including tip, which is not to bad actually.. The price of getting around here is much less than back 'home'.. Taking a cab in Norway is very very expensive in comparison to what it costs here... bla bla bla I know... gotta go anyway... About 12 hours and I'm back 'home' in Norway!! Yippie!!

New York, New York

Whew, this is a big place and many people... I've always wondered about how it would be to be here and now I know... Nothing about the city was as I thought it would be, and the park is just fantastic... Gotta run but will try and post again soon and before we leave for Norway again..

New Year.... New York.... New New New New

It's a new year and in a week I'm headed to the big apple with my best side.... It will be my first time in the Empire City and I'm looking forward to it of course, have been to all the airports in NY but have never had the time to stay and see what's what.... Nothing really new new new actually, things are humping along as normal, basketball and all that comes with it. Have decided to get back into the ring this summer, bring out the sticks and play again. I have missed it and look very much forward to teeing it up again. We have had out first snow here today, not much, but enough to feel like it's winter. If one has to judge the severity of the winter based on the snow plowing needed then this winter is real mild so far... I know I know I should never speak for soon, but I am really hoping for a continuance of the winter we have had so far.... If that happens, that means an early golf season, which means more time to practice and see what the swing says... Hehehe... funny how one wonders about things that one has actually no control over, the weather, the temp, the love you have for you children, other peoples actions, the love of your child and the love you feel for a soul mate... These things are, and just that, they are and they continue to be and there is very little one can do to change anything.. That is a good thing I think... Can't say how much I am looking forward to getting 'home', it's a far off place that seems more distant for each year that goes by. Maybe when one leaves it, one has it always in there, ones heart of course, but how does the heart change in regards to where it is, who is also there and of course the kids... Nothing is more important. Gotta go.. Bball practice..