How can one feel alone when they have people in their life? People who do care and maybe even love but at the same time one feels totally alone in this life? Always wondered about that, have never really ever felt it the way I do now.. Having my kids in my life is enough, I know that in regards to them I'll never be alone and that I am so thankful for. It can never be underestimated the power of love, what people will do or not do for it...
People risk their future, present and in some cases they risk their entire life... Giving someone or something everything you can, not thinking about the rationality of it all, just acting from the feelings pouring through, the powerful emotions can make people make choices that don't seem right from the outside, but for that person at that moment he or she makes a choice that will affect the rest of their lives...
Being alone, both physically and mentally can be a huge task to take on, if one is struggling both emotionally and financially then many things can happen, desperation is a ugly truth of this human life, desperate people do things that non-desperate people would never even think about... Making choices in the state of desperation is never a good thing, but what is one to do when they are in a state of desperation? The facts are often that one has no choices, other than to make a choice, in the state of mind he or she is in... Desperate or not...
Losing is never fun, not matter what it might be about... The smallest loss can often push someone over the edge, or an accumulation of smaller losses over time can be like the drop of water that makes the bucket overflow... Or of course one loss can be enough in many cases to make one feel like the bucket gets filled up and overflows in one foul swoop...
Not knowing, not feeling, not understanding, not not not...
To many not's for this guy now... Gotta go, and maybe there will be some Yes's next time....
