Mamma said knock you out....

Have you ever felt this way? I have and do, there are many reasons for this. Most of all it's arrogant people who continue to push their no clue agenda's. The one thing that I have wondered about scince moving here is that with a population of a little over 4,5 mil, which is not even half the size of New York, Chicago, LA, London... Or about the same size as Berlin, Paris.. How and why is this country giving Billions to the UN every year... top 5 almost every year.. where are the G 20 countries on this list? Many of them are behind this little country.... What the hell is going on here, sending billions away when we can't even take care of our own? You'd think the native here would have these numbers on the brain, but no, no... most people here have no clue about the amount given away and the how, when and why's. Almost everyone is living in their own little box, their own reality, not seeing or wanting to see the others around them that are in need of help, right here, right now, at home. In my own little world I can conciously see the above statement clear and precise, I too live my life in my own little box... uff da.. how to come out of that reality? I have no 100% answer, reading, watching alternative news, meditation, read more, and praying is my best medication for the urge to knock some people right out. I can understand the skeptics in regards to most things but when you have the facts and the recipie for change, then the question is in the end... why or why not is it happening? The answer to this is not an easy one and for most people they have no time to investigate the questions that pop into their heads, they are to busy with "life".. Uff a Meg... Time to go offensive here, I have not a worry about the constant back talk, double speak of all the nay'sayers... Let them come, as a man of almost 40 it's time to listen to my Mamma.. LL can tell you more by clicking here... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-7l250E5uM4

INR??

Uff a meg, uff da.... Was at the doctor's today to take my fifth inr in five weeks, and of course the last reading was to low. So I called the heart section at the hospital and the nurse said that I have to wait another 5 weeks and that I have to continue taking the weekly tests... It costs me 90 kr a week to take the blood test plus the meds.. Uff da.. I was really looking forward to getting the shock treatment (well, truthfully speaking, I am looking forward to the hopeful results of the procedure, not the actual treatment itself) I have been through it once b4 and it's a little scary. So, now I have to not only take these weekly blood tests. I have to play the waiting game all over again.. that's the hardest part of the whole crappy deal. Wondering how and why my heart got the way it is? After all the hoops I've played in my younger years, all the physical activity I have had in my life I would just assume that my heart would be strong. The last time I had the ultra sound on it the heart doctor said the same, my heart is ok, except for the fact it's shaking all the time it's trying to beat and pump blood around my body. I can not understand myself, but I am looking forward to the day that it beats normal again. I am looking very much forward to the day I can work out without wondering and stressing about my heart. For all those who read my stuff and have no heart or other physical problems, I hope you all say your thanks for being "normal and healthy".. believe me it's a real bonus. I have never been one to think "my body is a temple" or anything like that, but maybe I am floating twords this way of thinking. One of my fellow workers at LUB said to me last night that she can see that I've lost some weight, something I can honestly say I have not been trying to do, but I have been eating less latley, more or less because I have lost my desire for food, not because I'm dieting or "trying" to loose weight. Not that it hurts da. ;-) Would be nice to get somewhere around 105 kilo's, but that is a looooooooooooong way off... First things first.