Hope...

Having hope is very underestimated and we all know that. At some point we all feel either the glory of it or the desperation of not having it. I believe that hope is within us all, we all have the ability to hope, what we hope for, how we hope, how much we hope, when and where we hope and maybe most important for me is the question of why we hope?

I think sometimes it's like in the Matrix movies where the idea of human hope is the essential thing that gives us human beings our strength, the ability to hope in all areas of our lives, the way we can actually hope and hope again until things might actually turn out the way we want...

I will always be a human being that hopes for the best, tries to give my fellow humans the benefit of the doubt, give them the shirt off my back if I can, but I know that not everyone is like that... Most people are I would guess much more skeptical to others, strangers, people that are not part of their social network, you know what I mean, right??

It's all up to each one of us to hope. Pray even, if that what you want to call it, but do it and do it often and maybe you will see the benefits of your, well hopefully positive hopes ....

Missing. . .

Have you ever been missing something, something that should be there but when you look-- it's gone? What can a person lose and then for whatever reason never find again? Is it possible to lose everything without knowing its actually happening? Can important things one day mean nothing the next? Is it possible to lose oneself?

Everything without knowing its actually happening is hard to understand.  Moving towards the future without belief in itself will allow for a set up against the sun that will leave no one waiting for a kind of understanding for the one. And only that one will really have the real opportunity to wake the stars in a concept only created in ones soul. . .

Without belief and understanding no one will be able to see, not even with perfect or honorable wishes will the change really come and that might be a twist of fate that will never be understood or even recognized before it's to late. .

Nothing but the unconsciously fibers of our minds will ever possibly have the real chance in understanding this existence or what we call a life. .

I do not understand....

Gotta try and sleep. . .

Goodbye...?

Saying it, hearing it, writing it, thinking about it and of course you have the act itself. The hanging up with someone, driving away, walking the other direction. . you know the feelings. I know the emotional circumstances of the situation will always add a heightened positive or negative twist to the act, but this being said there is nothing like it, both ways...

It can be very hard, especially when you don't want someone to leave, feeling very unsure about the future and not really knowing if you'll ever see or be with that person again. .

I remember some goodbyes, both good and bad, each leaving it's own mark on my being and it is also strange to think how permanent it can be.

Gotta go . . goodbye...?

Biggy, Biggy, Biggy....

Taking chances in life...

A key?

I would assume, without trying to make an ass out of me and you, that taking some chances are required in this life, the what, when, where and how are all other questions for the person taking the said chance, some take greater chances in regards to their personal reality. People living within a war zone have of course another reality than a golf pro living like I do here in Norway... That is what I find so interesting about us, human beings, that without often thinking about their own, they take chances that in some cases change their lives forever. In many cases it changes the life of said person for the better as well, I choose to believe in the human being in all of us, I choose to believe that we all can make our own reality, make it come true, change the matrix we live in, so to say... Often it comes in gifts that we don't understand at the time are gifts, something basic, ordinary, something that happens one day... Something you might not even think to much about, but that one gift, no matter how small it might be changes things for all time...

Taking chances I would assume are for some people like a drug, maybe people that live for extreme sports, those people really take chances, with the one thing that I'd guess should matter most, their lives... They can actually and do loose them in pursuit of their goals, dreams or maybe better stated, their lives.. But then again what do I know... I am just assuming here...

Gotta go, now I have to assume....

One day....

One day...

One day things will be...

One day he will...

One day she will...

One day when...

One day then...

One day it will...

One day it won't...

One day it might...

One day right...

One day things will be...

One day...

Alone....

How can one feel alone when they have people in their life? People who do care and maybe even love but at the same time one feels totally alone in this life? Always wondered about that, have never really ever felt it the way I do now.. Having my kids in my life is enough, I know that in regards to them I'll never be alone and that I am so thankful for. It can never be underestimated the power of love, what people will do or not do for it...

People risk their future, present and in some cases they risk their entire life... Giving someone or something everything you can, not thinking about the rationality of it all, just acting from the feelings pouring through, the powerful emotions can make people make choices that don't seem right from the outside, but for that person at that moment he or she makes a choice that will affect the rest of their lives...

Being alone, both physically and mentally can be a huge task to take on, if one is struggling both emotionally and financially then many things can happen, desperation is a ugly truth of this human life, desperate people do things that non-desperate people would never even think about... Making choices in the state of desperation is never a good thing, but what is one to do when they are in a state of desperation? The facts are often that one has no choices, other than to make a choice, in the state of mind he or she is in... Desperate or not...

Losing is never fun, not matter what it might be about... The smallest loss can often push someone over the edge, or an accumulation of smaller losses over time can be like the drop of water that makes the bucket overflow... Or of course one loss can be enough in many cases to make one feel like the bucket gets filled up and overflows in one foul swoop...

Not knowing, not feeling, not understanding, not not not...

To many not's for this guy now...  Gotta go, and maybe there will be some Yes's next time....

Holes. . .

Holes, there are many kinds of them and sometimes they can have a huge impact on ones life. . For a golf pro holes are a very important part of their life, an easy one for anyone who knows one well. .

That's not the holes I am thinking about, the mess of the other meanings is where my thoughts are now. What I am thinking about is the holes in ones life, the ones that people drown in, maybe put their whole life into "it" or the hole someone puts their life in or into.

Defining ones holes is important I would think, knowing them, feeling them and what to do? The future will tell I know, that is the one of the many truths here in this life, there is always tomorrow. . the sun always comes up and if that stops, well, then we all know what happens. .

Gotta go . .

The modern day tribe. . .

Is it alive and well in the modern day society?

Do we as a beings have the abilities necessary now in this modern day society to have a real  understanding of what it means to live as a close tribe?

Hoping to learn more. .