Higher...

Getting there, being, coming, throwing, sending, lifting, wanting, shooting, supporting, rise, longing, playing, understanding, following through... on and on and on. I wonder sometimes if we will get any higher... In our humanity, our ability to see, the ability to feel the higher values of being human and wanting to achieve it together. In all honesty I don't know, I really don't think as a whole we will achieve the higher(ness) that I am rambling on about here. At least not now with the lack of truth and openness. Without understanding myself, I just have to go by my gut feeling.... and remembering how that might have been in another time and place... As a being, we have all felt it at some point, maybe in the womb, but I believe it is in us all... finding it might be the one thing we can do for ourselves and no one else. I know rambling on like this will most likely distance myself from some of my readers... they(you) might think that I have lost it... maybe I have just a little... And I like it. Thinking of all of it makes me almost sick, but it's what we have been delt as a race... ok? Deal with it. For your kids sake at least you better try...

It's been awhile....

It's been awhile... true statement, about quite a many things, great song and a good group that made it... Those of you who know me well, will know what I'm talking about, when I refer to that song, and it's cool that I also will understand the meanings of it all sometime in the future...

Knowing what it is to be me, it's alright to share, I almost need to in some strange way, almost twisted as some people have said... I don't know if it is twisted... different, unique, hard, honest, soft, bitter, thoughtness.. but twisted, no I don't see it... not in a negative sense anyway.. look at it in a twisted way if it's your wish, but remember that the overall good of it all STOMPS the bad or with the negative feeling usually applied to that word... I mean it with all my soul.

People are never forced to come here, read my shit and all the good bad or that one might come away with. It's not for everyone that's for sure and that's just how life works, Right?? Not everyone can, will, want to like you... it's impossible to achieve... some people like or dislike for seemingly no reason and I have learned through my life, being me, having the struggles that are usuall for all and the ones a bit out of the ordinary... Blablabla... F it.

This blog might take a different twist in the future... to make the most of it all.....